Windmill - Natureza Eterea (2021)

I made this album in tribute to Lindsheaven Virtual Plaza.

I cannot begin to say how big of an influence Cesar has had on me.

I can remember the first time I listened to Rainforest Hill 1 + 2 on the Vapor Memory channel back in late 2019, I was about 13 years old, and it was one of the first vaporwave or ambient albums I ever heard, and I cannot describe how it made me feel, it made me feel connected to nature and at the same time disconnected, overall that album had an amazing vibe. I would sleep to that album often, sometimes I meditated to that album, Ive listened to rainforest hill while getting a haircut 2 times already, I listened to it religiously because it was so good, it felt so relaxing and that album has a special place in my heart.

After months of listening to rainforest hill and being in love with it, I checked out LVP’s other music, and it was quite enjoyable, none of it made me feel the way rainforest hill did but it was great.

Although there are a few releases that have grown on me such as NTSC memories and Late Night Euphoria, but I cannot compare them with rainforest hill because they are entirely different feelings with entirely different proposes.

Weather Scanning from NTSC memories is one of the best songs I’ve ever heard, it has a type of nostalgia that many vaporwave tracks don’t hit, and its kind of a mix of super crunchy hip hop and vaporwave. It has a certain early 2000s vibe to it and I can never get old of it, and the fact that it samples Amy Winehouse definitely makes sense for that 2000s vibe, and also makes it sadder, Rest In Peace Amy.

Latin All Stars festival was a very important few days of me getting to know Cesar, I’ve talked to Cesar before on the AGAPE discord server earlier, but not much. When Latin All Stars came around is when I discovered his Mount Shrine alias and it was pretty amazing, I loved his mount shrine set with incredible visuals by Z.E.R.O. and his epic LVP set which just blew me away.

I had a set in Latin All Stars and there were 200 active viewers listening to my music which is an experience I will never forget, in the chat was also luxury elite and of course LVP, those were the two big names in there, I remember a part where lux and a bunch of people in chat were flipping out over a sick bass I did, but what really stuck with me was that LVP was listening to my music and telling me he really enjoyed it. I was a super big fan of his music and rainforest hill touched my heart, and here he was saying that my stuff was banger, it is truly something ill never forget.

After that I invited him to my discord server and he joined, although I don’t think he really said anything, but we chatted and he told me he listened to my ENTIRE discography (at the time 14 releases) and he told me how much he liked Knockout, and him saying that blew me away, I looked up to him so much and one of my biggest inspirations and here he was listening to all my music, something ill definitely never forget

When we were in contact im glad I told him many times how much rainforest hill meant to me and how much I loved it and listened to it. We also talked about possibly collaborating on a track sometime, although we were both busy at the time and pushed it aside for later, that is one of my biggest regrets in life and it breaks my heart every time I think about it.

When I heard on twitter that Cesar was admitted to the hospital due to COVID, I was kinda shocked and replied saying that I would pray and send good energy. But really I was certain that he was gonna be fine and I never imagined that anything bad would happen to him. I remember saying to myself “WHEN Cesar gets out i’ll message him, asking to collab and send him nice messages and such” I was very naive and didn’t think about the possibility of a reality in which he died.

When I heard of his passing I felt my heart sink, I was so shocked that I went numb I felt like I was drowning, I could not process at all. I remember I was doing homework and my mom was next to me doing her work. I was frustrated because of how hard the homework was, I checked twitter and saw the news and I was instantly shattered, I could not speak. I remember my mom telling me to focus back on my work and she was mad at me because she didn’t understand what just happened and I couldn’t tell her what happened, I was speechless.

After a lot of speechlessness and the drowned out voice of my mom telling me to get back to work. I started crying really hard, it was the hardest I’ve cried to a death since my dog died, and I’ve had several deaths in my life but this hit the hardest. I explained to my mom what happened and I couldn’t believe the words that were coming out of my own mouth, she consoled me and I also talked to my dad. I couldn’t process Cesar’s death for about a week, It hurt so much I cannot put it into words.

Cesar had many close friends, many of those friends are also my friends, and his family is going through an incredibly difficult time right now, Cesars father died within a week of his death, His mother and the rest of the Alexandre are going through the most difficult times in their life, and his significant other, Nicola Cruz, which I’ve also talked to, is going through an incredibly difficult time in their life.

Cesar and his family live in Brazil and the country is going through a very difficult political and financial time due to and incredibly horrible government. The country has barely done anything in regards to covid relief for its citizens and many many people have passed away, and unfortunately Cesar and his father’s life was taken for this reason. It is incredibly tragic and heartbreaking to know that this could have been prevented, all we can do is pray for our family and friends in Brazil that more people don’t get their life taken like this.

Long Live Cesar Alexandre, (aka Lindsheaven Virtual Plaza, Mount shrine and Kagutaba) you will be sorely missed and will always live on in our hearts <3